CRANES

[cooopout]

[sure am watching eiji fold cranes]

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[regretnooothing]

[I am on my way to crane 300 and yet]

I wonder if this is romantic...

[I only wonder this now]

[cooopout]

[......you derp]

I think it is. Or--it's a powerful thing to do either way. And I know Ankh appreciates it, or he wouldn't be keeping them.

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... He's keeping them? I thought he was throwing them away.

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Oh--Eiji, no. [looking startled] He's collecting them. They're just in his closet. ...I think partly because he doesn't want to deal with the feelings they imply right now, and partly because he wouldn't have a bed to come back to if he kept letting them accumulate. [his mouth crooking up a little] But he's keeping them.

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... [sighs and resumes folding!] Then I guess I'll keep going. Little Ginga is nearly done.

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...do you want to stop?

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It's hard to continue when I'm not even sure if this is doing any good, but I've come to far to give up. After I get to one-thousand, if it doesn't work, I'll ask around for ideas or something.

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...finish that one and give me your hands.

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[tilts his head, but finishes Ginga quietly and then holds his hands out as directed]

[cooopout]

[takes one between both of his and presses his thumbs firmly into your palms, massaging it gently]

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[Oh. That's nice.]

...

Ankh didn't answer because he said I should figure it out myself, but I really don't know how to prove something to him that I don't really know much about besides what we've done together...

[cooopout]

Part of me feels like he's being really impressively difficult and unfair. [shifts, pushing his thumbs out against the base of your thumb] But part of me thinks that he really doesn't know what he wants, and he's hoping you come up with something.

[looks up at you, a little curiously] You seem to be doing just fine.

[regretnooothing]

[shakes head] I just know how he is and what he wants, so I do that and give it to him until I don't want to anymore.

[cooopout]

It's good that you know you'll stop when you don't want to anymore.

[looking more thoughtful] ...what do you mean, when you don't know much besides what you've done with Ankh?

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Love and things like that are my worst area. I don't really know anything about it.

[cooopout]

How many other people have you dated? [rubbing gently out the the end of each fingertip now]

[regretnooothing]

I haven't.

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...oh.

[makes an effort not to sound startled, lacing his fingers with yours and taking your thumb in his other hand to stretch your hand out carefully]

I hadn't realized. [christ talk about the blind leading the blind]

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No it's fine. I guess I look otherwise.

[You really are good at this]

[Actually pauses for a moment but eh, some people here already know]

I really haven't been very exposed to those things.

[cooopout]

I think because you've traveled so much and experienced so many things, it's easy to assume that was one of them. [just holding your hand and rubbing his fingers gently into the center of your palm now]

[regretnooothing]

[Nods] I like to travel to help people and learn things from them, but that's probably because of the type of family I come from.

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[nods and makes an interested noise, rubbing his palm against yours softly]

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[There's that pause again. Aaah no matter how many times he says it, it's awkward]

The male in my family are all politicians except for me. You probably would recognize my grandfather..... he's kind of the Prime Minister.

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[his eyebrows climb, and his hands still as he looks up at you, but... he's trying not to laugh]

How does one become 'kind of' the Prime Minister of Japan?

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He wont be forever?