boggart aftermath

[cooopout]

[he's just sort of walking aimlessly out by the forest, his clothes unkempt and a completely lost look on his face]

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[regretnooothing]

You should. He probably has things he wants to say to you about it. He hates it at much as we do, but you already know that.

[cooopout]

...I do. Yes. [leaning against you gently, his hand rubbing soothingly along your back] Thank you, Eiji-kun. I actually appreciate you telling him--I wouldn't have known how to bring it up on my own.

[regretnooothing]

Your welcome in that case. I wish he didn't have to learn that way, but I guess it had to happen somehow.

[cooopout]

I wish he didn't have to learn at all. [softly, before he sighs] But we'll get through it. It's just... very strange at night, anymore.

[regretnooothing]

We have each other if the others can't stop or help.

[cooopout]

I know. [his voice low, tightening with emotion] Thank you.

[regretnooothing]

Mmm, it's okay. It's nice to not be going through it alone.

[pauses, tightening his hold on you] Even if it's something I'd never wish on someone else.]

[cooopout]

[squeezes back]

I feel the same way. It's all right.

[regretnooothing]

[sighs slowly, taking in your warmth]

[cooopout]

[just stands like this, not even noticing it's getting slowly darker until he shifts suddenly]

...Eiji-kun... are you this cold during the night, too? Is it all the time?

[regretnooothing]

It's colder at night, although I can't really feel it. Why do you ask?

[cooopout]

Do you--I mean. [pauses, his face still tucked against your shoulder] ...I could stay with you and Ankh, if you wouldn't mind. I've been this warm all the time lately, and... it might help.

[regretnooothing]

Oh...[Blushes a little, but it's a good idea. they can all keep an eye on each other...]

I'm okay with that. Another warm body would be nice.

[cooopout]

I'll ask him. [his voice soft, just under your ear] I need to talk to him about this regardless.

[regretnooothing]

Alright. [closing his eyes to this]

[cooopout]

[just presses his cheek to your skin, feeling you leech the warmth from him]

[regretnooothing]

[As the light leaves, pulls you closer and tighter]

[cooopout]

I hate this part. [his voice low and rough, his body feeling even hotter against yours in the cool night air]

[regretnooothing]

[nodding against you, his own body feeling colder.]

I do too, but it's kind of nice like this.

[cooopout]

No. [exhales, his breath steaming] It just... I can't feel it. But it makes me restless. [his voice dropping] I don't like it.

[regretnooothing]

The power [he corrects. The power that's starting to fight between them was nice. It makes him feel less useless, even if also a lot more harmful.]

I don't like it or these thoughts. [and now he has to debate letting go or staying here]

[cooopout]

It's not that. The power is something I'm used to--that I got used to, from Ankh's memories.

[he shakes his head for a second before he hits on it, his breath sighing out of his lungs]

I know I should be feeling something, and I'm not. It's too strange.

[regretnooothing]

Just desire. Things you want or want to do. Things you can't and the simulated sorrow behind not getting it.

[cooopout]

It's... not all the way yet, though.

[looks up at you, his eyes weirdly intense]

I still love you.

[regretnooothing]

[looks back at you, not judging or looking down on it. Just simple, sadden, inquiry]

Are you sure it's real?