boggart aftermath

[cooopout]

[he's just sort of walking aimlessly out by the forest, his clothes unkempt and a completely lost look on his face]

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[regretnooothing]

About the same. After what camp did, it got worse. The ice has started, but I can't control when it happens yet. It was hard to fight that situation to begin with. It told me to throw away the only thing fighting it and I could just feel it worsen faster, as if my body is slowly icing over.

[cooopout]

Oh. [breathes out, his eyes suddenly focused as he takes a step towards you, then another, until finally he's very close and he reaches up to touch soft fingertips to your cheek. his skin is blazing hot against yours]

I'm finally warm enough again. [his voice very soft]

[regretnooothing]

[His skin feels cold to the touch with just traces of warmth. Reaches up and places his hands over yours]

Thanks. [a pause, and then speaks softer] I hate this process.

[cooopout]

[he just closes his eyes for a moment then steps forward, his cheek sliding against yours before he presses against you, feeling how cold you are and wrapping a long arm around your waist]

...I'm frightened. [his voice very quiet against your neck, almost inaudible]

[regretnooothing]

[moving his arm around your shoulder then, keeping the other on your hand. He closes his eyes, trying to warm up with your warmth]

I am too.

[cooopout]

[just nods against your shoulder and presses his face to the bare skin of your throat, feeling the coolness against his cheek and holding you tighter]

[regretnooothing]

[stands there with you, enjoying the warmth on his cold skin]

Ankh is worried about you.

[cooopout]

[swallows a little--it's still sinking in that everything he thought you all said wasn't actually you guys]

...really? [he knows he sounds pathetic, but he's tired and scared enough that he doesn't care]

[regretnooothing]

[nods against you a little] He's worried about both of us, but you the most.

[cooopout]

[and that clicks]

You told him what's happening to me.

[regretnooothing]

We were handcuffed to each other and my ice happened on it's own because I was upset. I told him after that because he was confused and upset that I didn't tell him it was happening.

[cooopout]

It's all right. I'm not angry you told him--he had to know soon anyway.

[regretnooothing]

He did, but I;m glad you agree.

[cooopout]

[just nods]

...I should go talk to him about it soon, I guess.

[regretnooothing]

You should. He probably has things he wants to say to you about it. He hates it at much as we do, but you already know that.

[cooopout]

...I do. Yes. [leaning against you gently, his hand rubbing soothingly along your back] Thank you, Eiji-kun. I actually appreciate you telling him--I wouldn't have known how to bring it up on my own.

[regretnooothing]

Your welcome in that case. I wish he didn't have to learn that way, but I guess it had to happen somehow.

[cooopout]

I wish he didn't have to learn at all. [softly, before he sighs] But we'll get through it. It's just... very strange at night, anymore.

[regretnooothing]

We have each other if the others can't stop or help.

[cooopout]

I know. [his voice low, tightening with emotion] Thank you.

[regretnooothing]

Mmm, it's okay. It's nice to not be going through it alone.

[pauses, tightening his hold on you] Even if it's something I'd never wish on someone else.]

[cooopout]

[squeezes back]

I feel the same way. It's all right.

[regretnooothing]

[sighs slowly, taking in your warmth]

[cooopout]

[just stands like this, not even noticing it's getting slowly darker until he shifts suddenly]

...Eiji-kun... are you this cold during the night, too? Is it all the time?

[regretnooothing]

It's colder at night, although I can't really feel it. Why do you ask?